Dark truth of Bieber’s teen idol years
Justin Bieber has revealed he was "really, really suicidal" as a teenager while dealing with the pressures of fame.
The singer, 26, said he was "suffering" and in "consistent pain" after being targeted by cruel trolls.
Justin opened up about his mental health in his new documentary, Justin Bieber: Next Chapter.
The Baby hit maker - who is married to Hailey Baldwin - said: "There were times where I was really, really suicidal.
"Like, man, is this pain ever going to go away? It was so consistent, the pain was so consistent.
"I was just suffering, right? So, I'm just like, man, I would rather not feel this than feel this."
Justin was discovered at the age of 13 by talent manager Scooter Braun thanks to his YouTube covers.
He previously revealed he first tried drugs at 13 and that his team feared for his life as he was always "popping pills".
He was just 16 when he released his debut album, which topped the charts and catapulted him to fame.
The Love Yourself singer said he was shocked at all the "mean" comments he received as a teen, with trolls claiming he "looked like a girl".
"I had no idea that I would get sucked up by all this stuff," Bieber said. "There were just so many people who were so mean. Random people who were like, 'You suck,' 'You look like a girl'.
"I would shake it off and act like it didn't bother me, but that stuff bothered me and then it affected how I acted and how I treated people.
"It's like thus ongoing cycle of like, hurt people hurt people. I was just this young kid."
Speaking to Scooter about his struggles as a teenager, the singer explained: "You are this star that is supposed to have it all together."
He added: "You don't realise the power of just saying, 'Hey, this is how I'm feeling.'
"I just kind of let the insecurities of everything going on dictate how I started to move."
Scooter confessed: "If I could do it all over again I would have had you in therapy day one and have someone separate to all of us [his team] to talk to.
"There's so many tragedies that could have been avoided."
Bieber stressed the importance of vocalising any feelings of loneliness to help ease the strain people put on themselves.
"I just would encourage people, like, 'Hey, if you're feeling lonely, talk about it. Say it out loud.'
"There's a freedom in that. I could have avoided a lot of pain."
Bieber's drinking and addiction to drugs spiralled as his fame intensified. In 2014, he was arrested for drunk driving and driving without a valid licence.
Bieber has been candid about his mental health battles in the past.
Last year, he said he'd "made every bad decision" by the time he was 20, after fame had "gone to his head."
Justin wrote: "It's taken me years to bounce back from all these terrible decisions, fix broken relationships, and change relationship habits. "Luckily God blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me."
He also has Lyme disease - which he was diagnosed with after suffering with rashes, fever, headaches and exhaustion.
Justin and Hailey got engaged in July 2018 and wed in New York later that year, before tying the knot for a second in South Carolina last September.
This story originally appeared on The Sun and is republished here with permission
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